有人說：人生如夢！
多麼希望這一切都只是一場夢！
風在大，也刮不走思念！
曾經 我 怕黑、怕閃電、怕獨自上街買東西、怕陌生人、怕蟑螂、怕蜘蛛、怕...
當了 媽 之後 我 都不怕了。
Wednesday, January 26, 2022
Tuesday, January 25, 2022
Woman
“YOU’D BE SURPRISED HOW MANY TIMES A WOMAN SITS IN HER CAR, ON HER BED, IN THE BATHROOM, OR IN THE LIVING ROOM & QUICKLY CRIES CAUSE SHE’S SO STRESSED OUT, BUT WHEN SHE SHOWS HER FACE AGAIN, SHE LOOKS PERFECTLY FINE, UNBOTHERED & SHE STILL MANAGES TO SMILE & GO ABOUT HER BUSINESS—“
Raise your hands, if that is you!
Praise yourself and give yourself a huge hug!
Monday, January 24, 2022
Everything happened with a reason
J’s behavior was way beyond what I could bear but I can’t take any days off because of her. I tell myself no matter what I will responsible within my own position. Especially because the boss was out of the country.
Things that happened in my life within a week were way beyond my limits so I took some days off. Those days off from the workplace were so I could calm myself down better and try my best to fulfill my responsibilities when I returned.
Last time on Tuesday I was planning to take at least three days off from work. In the end I only took one day (Friday) off, just because on Wednesday the S.W., C was off and on Thursday Q was off.
And when I came back to work on the following Monday, the nurse aid was joking with me about last Friday, that there were over 40 seniors that came to the center unlike the day before where it was only around 30 seniors came to the center. That was not funny at all. I answered her, shh, don’t let the boss know ironically. I must not be welcomed by the seniors. That’s why less seniors came to the center while I was there.
Sunday, January 23, 2022
Friday, January 21, 2022
Mom
Mom passed away 01/21/2022 in Taiwan. 01/28/2022 cremation.
Though my mom went back to Taiwan years ago, since then neither she or me visited each.
Thank my sister and my niece has been taking care her since.
Today was the first time that I felt like I am an orphan.
Somehow the day before I did have a bad feeling about her health condition. It probably is the mother-child affinity.
I cannot tell my kids about it now, too upset to open this conversation with them.
How I wish I were them, whenever I saw whoever can afford or willing to take care of elderly.
Fear
Thank all the people treated/treating me wrong.
Kitchen: I learned to treat myself nicely, like buy myself a membership for the arboretum.
Ex. A.C.: That’s how I get to work 30 minutes longer every day of the weekday. Therefore, I earned and learn more since then.
A.C.: Work extra works and again learned even more. Took one days off since I worked in this company four years ago.
P.D.: Thank her for everything for couldn’t do anything right. Took four days off since I have worked in this company four years ago. So I can stay home with the kids more.
First impressions:
The lead social worker: By that I doubt that I should stay the first minute I work there. Thinking if the social worker of the company was like that don’t mention the rest of the coworkers. Thank God I found out later that I was wrong.
P.T.: Greet and welcome me warmly.
Personal care: Patiently nicely help this newcomer (me).
Kitchen: Courteous to me at the beginning.
Ex. A.C.: Treated me like she is the boss of me. Treated seniors rudely undercover.
O.T.: Didn’t even talk to me until long after I work there.
Ex. P.D.: Treated me like her friend and every question that I have. Learn a lot from her. Protect me from the harm from other coworkers.
Boss: Learn the whole lot from her by watching how she is dealing/interact with things and people.
My son got the job because her.
Protect me from the harm from other coworkers.
A boss that is capable to pay salary.
And remembered that four years ago, my prayer for I was eagerly looking for a new job. I pray that I can have a job won’t need to commute through freeway and work for a nonprofit company.
Tuesday, January 18, 2022
A Not Quite Happy Story
This past Sunday, as usual, we had our once a week family ritual, eat out. And as usual, I was waiting outside in the car as the kids getting ready. Then I got a message from my niece in Taiwan said my mom was in the ER with critical condition. So I told my older son to get our lunch delivered instead. Also, let them know that I was going to get the milk which I planned to after the lunch. At the same time messaging my niece to take good care of herself and her mom (my sister) especially during the pandemic.
Too upset to tell my kids this terrible news I tried to calm myself down (crying) before I can start the car. When I arrived at the grocery store’s parking lot, I cried again so I was able to walk in the store to get one gallon of milk, checked out quickly walked back to the car, I cried again so I was able to drive home, arrived home and again I cried in the car before I was able to walk in the house and put the milk in the fridge. And once again, I walked out the house to the yard, crying and praying. Waited until the kids finished their lunch, then went the house, grab my lunch and ate in my room.
A couple hours later, which was the next day in the early Monday morning around two something I got the message from my niece said my mom is ok.
My mom’s health declined rapidly lately been in and out of the hospital couple of times.
Someone Is Praying For You by Heritage Singers (Lyric Video)
By the way the restaurant that we were ordering from was called Malbec Market I found out just now (Tuesday).
Monday, January 17, 2022
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