Day Twenty Nine

Krispy cream, very generous for the “National Coffee Day”.

I love to shop at Trade Joe’s, the music, setting, environment, price, and so on. If only I could, I would bring my chair outside of the store and listen to their music or even dance alone with the music.

Only got to watch, “San Andreas”, the last 50 minutes or so.

Finally got to done with applying for EDD; however, they still need to have a phone call with me for the final qualifying. Wish me luck.

Still need and want to get a job ASAP. It’s been some time since I needed to find the job myself instead of  referring from friends or family.

Day Twenty Eight

Altadena, for the first time, went there after the fire broke out in January.

So sad to see most of the land that has been burned down has not been rebuilt yet.

Some of the homes survive in the middle of the ruins.

Aldi supermarket looks intact outside but actually has been burned down. The store, grocery outlet, right across still open for business. Is it rebuilt or does it survive the fire?

Day Twenty Seven

In the movie, “Wet Hot American Summer”, the camp counselor team makes the promise to gather together again, and they are wondering what they will become after.

As not really old but not young anymore like me, I am wondering who I will be after 10 or 5 years.

National Coffee Day 2025

Celebrate National Coffee Day with Krispy Kreme!

Sept 29: Grab a FREE coffee (hot or iced)+ FREE doughnut of your choice (no purchase needed!)

Sept 27–29: Buy any dozen & get an Original Glazed® dozen for $1

How generous! Who would not love doughnuts and coffee, and it’s free!

Land of Bad

Talk about the military training. How does that teach you how to survive in critical moments?

Never can imagine how to survive in that kind of situation. Witness your comrades die in front of you. Making the life or death decision in no time. Never surrender and never give up to recuse your comrades.

Many soldiers came back from war, but suffered from PTSD. I mean how strong the physical and especially the psychological can walk out in whole. It’s truly beyond the imagination.

Day twenty Six

Encounter with so many people, authors, instructors, and such, with the same name as mine. Never meet any of them in person.

How I wish I were one of them, not be famous or rich or anything, but be the happy and helpful one.

Watched most part of the movie, “Land of Bad”, like 1 hour and 20 minutes.

Enjoy watching the seniors ballroom dancing and singing along with the music. They are not young anymore, but they are surely strong and dance beautifully. They all dressed up for it nicely.

Too bad I don’t know how to.

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Day Twenty Five

Reading.

Do the composting, the lazy way, dig a hole then done.

The Karate Kid

Our family never breaks the promise we make.

Life may make you break down, but you are the one to make the decision to whether to stand up or not.

The master’s family tragedy, so sad. God sends angels to help you heal little by little. Actually, it’s always a mutual way. No one is ever alone, even a piece of petal, leaf, the dog, the cloud above the sky, the wine, the rain; it can go on and on. Sense it, accept it and go with it. No fear, no regret.

Never give up, win the competition fair and square with respect. 

Kid in the movie is from Detroit.

The author of, “Of My Own Making” that the book I just finished reading  is from Detroit.

And her name is Daria Burke, I saw the sign,”Burke Manor Apartments” on the way to the library right after I watched this movie. 

Stay Healthy for the Ones Who Need You

Last week, one of the Taiwan doctors who is dedicated to the native Taiwanese died at age 58.

Admire him, feeling really sad, but if he can take good care of himself. That way, he may live healthily and longer and might inspire and help a lot more people who are in need of his help. 

Though, it’s easier said than done. Especially for people with such passion, enthusiasm, and love like him. Other times we see the firefighters, policemen, and more: they save others but lost their own.

Doctor who pushed for hospital in remote Taitung dies at 58

Day Twenty Four

Watched part of the movie, “non-step”

Sang two songs at the karaoke group.

Need to contact EDD in order to have the unemployment benefits.

Day Twenty Three

Watched movie, The Karate Kid.

Coffee & Conversation Club

Plant Swap

Day Twenty Two

Karaoke & Dance, sang two songs this time.

All the people that I met, the books that I read, the videos that I viewed, the words that I wrote; they are the unceasing help that is sent from heaven.

John 14:20 In that day you will know that I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you.

Isaiah 41:10 Do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, and I will help you, and I will uphold you with my right hand that makes things right

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Day Twenty First

Fiesta Alhambra

Married With Kids

Young couple with three little kids on the bus.

All the way, a short distance around 30 minutes. Never heard a sound from the dad or saw him helping take care of the kids. And the mom was loudly, harshly scolding her oldest girl all the way. In public and the girl is like 3 or 4 years old. If you are not happy about the kids, why are you getting married and with the kids? The younger one is only a baby! 

Day Twentieth

TRAIN FESTIVAL 2025 – LA’S SPIRIT IN MOTION!

Moon festival event

My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2

A nice movie! Full of laughter and tears.

The strong bond between family. Mostly good, only sometimes it’s suffocated.

There is a tiny part of the movie talking about the relationship with the neighbors. It really takes courage and wisdom to turn enemies into friends.

Be brave and out loud your thoughts and feelings; otherwise, nobody can read your mind. But leave to God whether they will truly understand and appreciate it and make change. You have done your part.

Natural Day

Everyday is a brain new, a special day.

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Mosquito

Always before you even know it, there is one circle you around and give you bumps.

No matter how hard you try, you can hardly get.

And see so many spiders (webs). Ugh!

The Harder They Fall

It’s kind of heavy.

It started with a tragic, the son was forced to witness both of his parents being shot, and the killer used the knife to carve a cross on the little boy’s forehead. He then was 10 years old.

True love, royalty, sacrifice, gun fight, exploration, robbery and more.

Ending, years later, the killer was rescued by jailbreak. The little boy is then a grown-up seeking revenge on the killer.

Right before the man trying to shoot the killer. The killer told him an even more cruel truth story. There were actually half-brothers. The father abused and killed the mom, then ran away. And he changed his name and then became a pastor who owned a small church, married, and had another boy.

The elder brother also told him the reason why he carved a cross on his forehead is that he then would know which one he. And won’t kill his own brother. 

You pay the price of what you have done.

Wet Hot American Summer

Rated “R”, no doubt about it.

It’s all about what happened the day before the summer camp.

The kids, the counselors’ team, and the director.

No need to mention those rated “R”. Besides that, it does have a lot to learn or recall our own life stories.

In the end, the counselors’ team did reunion after 10 years. After the last day of the summer camp, they said that they wondered what they would be then.

A lot of times, or I should say most of the time, older doesn’t guarantee that you are smarter or maturer.

Often times we refuse to recognize or admit or accept; we do all have some kind of problems that need to be fixed. You are the only person owning the key to accomplishing. 

Day Nineteen

Watched the movie “Wet Hot American Summer”. Rated “R”, oh my!

Attended the dance club, I was sitting there the whole time swaying and singing with the music.

How I wish that I knew how to. One of the gentlemen does ask me to dance politely, but I can only say “no” to him, how sad!

Appreciate all those seniors dancing beautifully with confidence.

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Day Eighteen

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Watched the movie “The Harder They Fall”.

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Mirror

Recalling, it’s like maybe one or two or three years ago, when I looked into the mirror and felt like I couldn’t recognize my own reflection. It looks horrible, not ugly, but it’s not me at all. Seriously, I was shocked and scared by myself literally.

But last night when I looked at my reflection, the me seemed coming back. The sweet one.

What happened to me these past two, three, or four years? Job, work?

Is the total resting the answer?

Day Seventeen

Watched the movie “My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2”.

Went to the library event.

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Day Sixteen

Preparing for the application of the EDD and job application.

Trauma

Pick what you love, love what you pick.

Until this trauma happens to me at my ex-working job.

Day Fifteen

Times fly, the fifteenth day out of the job.

You are never too old to dance. Think about that I used to be the one always positively encouraging the seniors. Got to get back to my feet ASAP.

But still the question repeatedly: why are you leaving the previous job? Answer?

Kind of don’t want to go to the karaoke group.

Saying Good Bye

One of the dear friends’ grandmother passed away.

I only can say that the kindness is in their family’s gene.

Such an elegant, lovely lady, her smile, her dimples, kind words and more.

And remember years ago people asked her, why don’t you apply for some benefits from the government. Her reply is, “no, we should leave that for the people who are really needy”.

Her efforts raised a wonderful family, generations after generations.

Day Fourteen

Met some more seniors of the karaoke group that I attained from another center.

Glad that we recognize and encourage each other.

Also met a new friend; she invited me to another karaoke group. 

They all seem nice and active, wow!

Some of them, in between the singing, went playing table tennis, using computers and more.

After the karaoke, I went on the line dancing a bit: another wow, look how active they are and no mention of that they were doing really well too.

Still need to find a new job ASAP.

Transform

Turn negativity into positivity. It sounds easy to a regular ear, but it takes time and courage, and it’s a painful procession. 

Stand-up comedians using their miserable experiences to write the skits speak out, leaving others to laugh with tears.

Likewise, the writer wrote their life/suffering story.

Day Thirteen

Healing processes continue.

It’s Saturday!

Southern California Railway Museum

Soup ‘n Fresh

Day Twelve

Everyone else seems strong except me.

Thanks for those warm welcomes and kind suggestions and support from the karaoke group.

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Day Eleven

Quiet a busy day today,

Job Fair, my first time to be there, not quite satisfied.

Attending “Stress & anxiety”, the content is good, but didn’t start on time. It’s like a 22-minute delay.

A lot of events that I have attended were like this, annoying.

English with Andy, nice, but overlapping with movie time. Next time I will only go see the movie.

Movie time: The Fundamentals of Caring. A touching movie, but miss the beginning.

Three different trips of grocery shopping, why? Of course, for the different weekly deals. Is it worth it to drive around for that? Well, if you think it is, then go for it. It’s a field trip, fine with me.

I got pork, avocados, and milk.

And I saw another senior from my previous job, wanted to say hi to her, but hesitated.

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Library event, Book Wreath Crafting, Create a beautiful decorative wreath using old book/magazine pages. First used the hot glue gun, smelly, the only complaint.

Stress & Anxiety

Attended a seminar about stress & anxiety and today I read a book that mentions something about stress & anxiety.

Sometimes, having a little bit of stress is good for you.

The difference between stress & anxiety is that the stress will go away as the stressor is gone, but anxiety will still linger even when the stressors are gone.

Day Ten

Cry 

Every time I heard the worship song, it touched me.

Day Nine

Tiring

Say Bye Bye

I hate to say goodbye. And not even good at it.

Most of the time, I cry.

Day Eight

Woman’s club, that’s a wow first experience with this group. They are my heroines, role models.

Seeing one lovely lady joyfully even though she has a prosthetic leg. Turn negative into positive; it takes bravery and wisdom.

Second week of jobless, pretend that I am on vacation. 

Too tired to walk forward, I am sure that I still need some more time to relax before heading to the next state.

Older kid moved out, younger kid moved back just a couple of months later.

And what happened to me now, I really cannot imagine that if I face all this alone, what will happen to me. Though he can’t do much for me, being here is everything to me.

And of course, with the older one coming back to visit us and also texting me occasionally, that truly means a lot to me.

Lost and Found

Found my sunglasses that have been missing for more than a week.

I thought I had lost until the other day after grocery shopping, and I walked back to the car. At first, I wanted to put the groceries on the front passenger side but the car park beside mine is a bit too close, and I didn’t want to put it in the truck either. So I opened the left side of the passenger door; there I spotted my sunglasses. Sometimes you find annoying the car park beside you too close, but this time I truly appreciate. Not that the sunglasses are expensive or anything. I do want my old sunglasses.

Day Seven

If I were 30 or 40 years younger, then I would make different decisions on college major, career, spouse, and so forth. What will I be now? Maybe I can do better or maybe worse?

Well, the past we won’t be able to change or regret, the future is unknown. Seize  the moment that is the only solution.

(Amy) Really appreciate your consideration. I need to find a job as soon as possible but need some break time for myself at the same time.

Sometimes I even wish that I could retire now though I am not too far away from it. On the other hand, I wish I could work as long as I can.

Day Six

Enjoy the freedom, meditation, and me time.

Table tennis and karaoke and some other occasions, wondering why Asian people, not all but most of them, are not so friendly to newcomers.

And a lot of Asian no respect, are not polite or whatsoever.

Deep inside still very much hurt, tears whenever I hear the worship songs.

Growing old, not everyone gets to have this privilege, now that’s funny!

Thank you for letting me know what my shortcomings and problems are. Relying on God, not oneself.

Day Five

Need to remind myself always to have gratitude towards every situation and everybody; otherwise, life will be miserable.

How I wish the time could freeze, especially the good times.

Start to write again: this I should have done a  long time ago. When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

Nothing is easy, nothing is free, it’s worth trying.

Saw three seniors (including one couple) from my ex-job, they didn’t see me, sigh!

No matter how others treat you, treat them back with respect. The only thing that one can control is oneself. It’s their loss, if they don’t.

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You Tell Me

How to answer why you left your last job!?

Because I have been let go!

Miserable!

Day Four

Trying to keep myself really busy.

Self-contradiction; don’t want to leave home. Once out, don’t want to go home.

Taking advantage of the “free day” is fun and relaxing. But I have to try hard to avoid the group, because they are always loud and block the way. It’s really annoying.

Blooming is not only happening in Spring. Appreciate every season and every stage of life.

No matter how hard the situation is, one still can blossom and bear fruit.

Sometimes going with the flow seems easy, or should I say that we have no choice. Follow your heart, not others.

Day Three

A joyful heart is the best medicine.

Joy is the feeling of being needed, being appreciated, being able to take care of oneself.

We remove toxic products through breathing out, urine, feces, and sweating.

It seems everyone is happy retired except me, who needs a new job as soon as possible.

They are all good at sports, singing, dancing, and more.

Where there are people, there is conflict. So true and so sad!

Met another long lost friend today, amazing!

Day Two

Because of not feeling treated fairly, I left my job.

So I can have some free time to go to the adult center to play table tennis but feel not welcomed by some participants there. That’s my first time there.

Then I decided to leave early and went to the other city’s senior center, and there I met my long lost friend, yay!

Forced myself to exercise more than usual that I do to release the sad and hard feelings.

Caregiver

Sad to say that in most of the cases the caregivers go crazy or are sick or even die before the people whom they are taking care of.

Never suggest friends send their loved ones to the care facility; let them make their own decisions. I’ve seen people go crazy because of the blame from their friends and family or from themselves.

Side effect

Seeing seniors with a long list of medicines.

Beginning with one or two medicines, then the side effects appear, and you go to the doctor. The doctors prescribe more medicines for the side effects, and then it goes on and on. And then, the end.

The funny thing is, they will not leave the doctor’s office unless the doctor gives them more medicines.

Medicine is the last solution, especially for emotional or behavioral problems. That’s how some people become really crazy.

First Day

Semi-Involuntary let go!