weakness

Last week during my fasting, I felt both strong and weak inside of me. I felt strong because the only thing I can do is pray, I felt so close to HIM. Yet I felt so weak because I was so sick and when I got better I felt I’m so hungry. I almost talk myself into just eat a tiny food is ok for now. Buy finally I past the test, even when I was cooking for the kids.

That is the first I do fasting and praying. Also knelt down and pray to GOD. I knelt down not because I want to do that. It is only because when I was sick, I felt very uncomfortable. I could not lie down, stand up, sit down, not any position will help me to feel good. That’s why I knelt and prayed.

another perfect stranger 2

GOD is a healer, a counselor, HE KNOWS YOU EVEN BEFORE YOU ARE BORNED.

In the story, in the conversation between the girl and the guy, she finally willing to talk about the problems that she encountered years ago. And before she can notice it, she is healed, her dream come true. That is really beautiful and beyond any word can describe.

No one can understand you completely, not even your parents or best friend. Especially when you are a teenager, you have a lot of things or pressures or struggles or hurting inside you. You just don’t how to talk about it, or who you can trust, how to get help when you are in trouble.
 

Yes! GOD is just like a counselor, HE is always there when you need HIM. But HE will never force you to accept HIM or to get help from HIM. When you do go to HIM, HE is all ears, listen to you, comfort you, or send angel(s) physically help on you. And even better is that this help is anytime, anywhere, and free of charge.

truck

Earlier today I went to visit a client of mine. On the way back on the freeway, there was a truck ahead of my car on the next lane. And you know some truck they has either sand or some small rocks blew off while they passing by you. I could feel them, the sand all toward my car’s front windshield. My first reaction was slow down, try to be farther from that truck. And then I passed a stop police car the roadside. I start to have a conversation inside myself, and thought what if the police stop me say that I drove too slowly. I will tell him because I try to get away from that truck and also ask him why don’t you ask truck don’t have sand of small rocks fall off while driving.

Then something weird happened right at that moment the truck sped up farther from mime until I cannot feel the sand blew off to my car.

movie review - another perfect stranger

Trailer https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=UaULWxSo3mA

Full video https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=55pTVRyuaMk

“Another Perfect Stranger”, is a movie that plays on the TV almost a year ago. I didn’t get to watch the whole thing but it gives me a lot of thinking. And yesterday I get to watch it again on the TV. So I revised this blog a little.

In this movie, it shows the meet with God Anthropomorphic.

The story is about a very angry and confused girl. She goes on a trip to the place that she is hoping her application of an art school will accept her, after 3 months of applying. One dinner night before, after she has a conversation with her parents and her mom shares her personal experience, encounter with Jesus in person ten years ago, her relationship with her parents suddenly changed. And she takes this school tour trip, a chance for her to get away from her parents.

And during her trip by plane, she accidently has someone who sits next to her twice. She feels so amazed and she talks to that perfect stranger. She asks a lot of questions about this guy. Questions like, why are you going to that place, what do you do …etc. She is very curious about him, even when he’s writing something. She asks him what he is writing about. He tells her, it is a poem written by God, HIS FATHER. HE EVEN SHOWS HES NAIL MARKS TO HER. HIS job is as a counselor. She also talks about her problems that she’s been through, with friends, her mother and the reason she cannot not believe in GOD.

The story really interests me. From the story, it seems not real to encounter with, GOD, I mean physically. But it is so real that sometimes you can just encounter with same people couple of times IN SHORT PERIOD OF TIME. Or encounter with different people at different time, but they all give you the same messages. Or you sometimes seem hear something. Or you feel that you have to do something. Or you have urge desire to say something to someone or call them. Or when you are in trouble someone at the right moment offer you for help. I think that’s GOD. They all in different forms just like angels to me.

People sometimes ignore those messages from GOD. They don’t believe it. They are afraid of it. They don’t even have time to think about it. It is a tough judgment, how to judge if it’s really coming from HIM, or it just our imagination, or is it from the evil spirit?

God is waving His hands to us; invite us to know Him personally. He gives us the privilege to make our own decision to accept Him or not. He is the only one understand and knowing every single detail about our life. Let go and let God.

Sometimes painful experiences are just too hard to let it go or even talk them out. Jesus is the only way to let things go away. Faith is something, sometimes very tough to explain. How to approach a people about faith is a challenge most of time.

Believe in God, the faith is different from religion. Like are you a fan or a follower?

God is not slow but patient, He gives the time to everyone, so no one will be let behind.

In the near end of the movie, the guy that the girl accidently meet for twice in a row ,shake hands and say goodbye that’s the time he shows his pierced wound on His hand to her purposely, that truly touches me and make me cry.

rabbits

Our rabbits are fine. They seem love peach. They don’t eat celery, zucchini and onion. I’m surprised, because in the story, PETER RABBIT, they seem like onion, they even stole some. We gave them another light shower; they were so dirty with pop and pee.

time

Knowing time is the only thing that we cannot control or buy back with anything. It’s kind of sad.

When we getting older that means our kids are growing too. I pray for their growing safely, happily and knowing what are their responsibilities for their own life too.

fasting

So far I’ve been fasting for around 48 hours, and during these times I only can have some diluted apple juice. Now I start to eat a little real food. Be honest I’m kind of scared.

I was fasting because some health issue. For the past week I had an indigestion problem. For the beginning, I thought that my stomach need only rest for couple of hours then I’m good to eat again. And my stomach felt upset again. This cycle repeat for 3 times until then I realize that I had too much confidence in myself. I did pray a lot for myself on that. But I guess that I put myself before GOD. GOD will heal me for sure but not like instantly. I still have my job for my recovery. I also ask the kids prayed for my. That’s the only time I felt good during the sick period.

During that sick week, I felt terrible. I had no any strength. I felt like throwing out, but I couldn’t. I couldn’t even burp, fart, or go to restroom. If I could have just done any 4 of them, I’ll feel ok, but I couldn’t.

When we’re not sick, we always think a lot of our physical reaction as natural. For example, burping, farting, or go to restroom. Sometimes we even thought that’s annoying especially in the public. At that time, how I wish that if I could only burp, fart or go to restroom.

And I think that I need a lot of prayers for my health and wisdom. So I can take good care of myself.