For those who enjoy listening more than reading like me, feel free
to visit the following link to hear me. And don't forget to scroll down to the
very end of this page to read the bible verses and listen to that one song that
I shared.
Last year I had testimony in Mandarin and Taiwanese (same
content), and I plan to have a Cantonese one by the end of this year.
Today I'm going to have a testimony in English, though I do have a short
testimony in English based on my Mandarin testimony last
year.
(Once upon a time, just kidding.)
That was 20 something years ago, I was not yet a Christian, I had
conversations with God. Back at that time when I first came to America, my
ex-husband was very into the Christian thing, he got baptized and had a great
lot of services involved in church.
I, myself was an atheist I believe in myself, if I try hard enough, I can
conquer everything, I can make through anything, in other words, I
believe I can fly.
One day I had a thought, why don't I asked a favor from "the God". I
was married for three years with no kid yet, I was worried and anticipated
eagerly to have my own child. So I had the first conversation
with God, I said, "OK, God, if you are really that good, then make me a
mom and then I will believe in you and go to church".
(Watch what you are wishing for.)
Guess what? Very shortly after I found that I was pregnant. By the way, at that
time I was still a student so I went to the school's nurse first and ask for a
pregnancy test, the result came out positive, I was shocked, I mean, I must,
because the nurse asked me, "is this an unexpected pregnancy?”
Ran home to tell the news, on the way, I had another
conversation, the second one, with God, "now that that's
a too short notice and I cannot just believing You this soon, how about
that, God, give me some more time", yeah, I tried to negotiating with
God, "You know, Asian parents always wish and want our first
born, a male, a boy, right? So, OK, God, then give me a boy then I will keep my
promise this time okeydokey".
I went to every single checkup for the baby and do all kind of exams and tests
including ultrasounds but never ask or thought that's necessary to know the sex
of my baby until the moment came, after nine months when it was time, went to
hospital, gave birth of my baby. Soon after the baby was out of me, the doctor
said to me, "congratulations, it's a boy! “Again, I was shocked, I said to
myself, is that really!? I meant, OMG!?
Did I keep my promise and go to church this once? Nope, I didn't, I have to say
that I'm a very protective parent. That's just another excess, you can say that
again. Therefore, how can I take my new born to the public? Besides, have you
ever seen when people sees the babies or young kids? They pinch their cheeks,
touch their hands, and kiss them, yech!
And I forgot my conversation with God until my older son was almost two years
old. One day, I thought, my son and me need friends, so, let's go to church and
meet some good friends.
This time we did go to church, but, remember, I'm a very protective parent. You
all know that when we come to church, parents go to their own adult service and
the kids go to either nursery or children Sunday school or youth service. I
have to say aloud again that I'm a very protective parent, soon as I sent my
son to the nursery, I decide to stay to protect him, and I stayed with him
until the lunch time that means the service is over. Couple weeks passed, one
of the sister must observe and cannot stand anymore, so she gently offered me
the help to take my boy to the nursery for me and promised me that she will
stay with him at the nursery.
That was the first time that I stayed for church service, and I
was touched by the worship songs, the Holy Spirit came pouring down onto me, I
was tearing non-stopping and decided to be baptized.
For the people that you know me that I have two sons. Yes, I hope you do ask me
this question, what about your second son, did you get to talk to God this
time for your second child? You have a question and I have got the answer for
you. This time I didn't dare to challenge Him, I pray to Him
instead, the third conversation between me and God. "Oh
Lord, please bless me with another child!”
Truly at that time I did really want was a girl. But later I
become a single mom, so I think God must know, it's easier for me to raise two
boys, instead of, one boy and one girl.
I
dare to dishonor, challenge, negotiate, and break the promises with God. But
still He loves me dearly, and He knows me thoroughly.
Lastly,
before close my testimony, here are three bible verses and one song that I want
to share with you. Don't stop believing and keep praying.
(The end)
Psalm
139:13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together
in my mother's womb.
2 Peter 3:9 The Lord
is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is
patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to
repentance.
Deuteronomy 32:4 "The
Rock! His work is perfect, For all His ways are just; A God of faithfulness and
without injustice, Righteous and upright is He.
A wonderful song to share, Remember,