heartbreak 心痛的感覺

That's how I feel sometimes, when you have teenager(s) around.

Teenage Rebellion, start from around 14 ends until their brains are fully developed psychosocially by age 25.

If you have two kids and their age is 6 years apart, that means you will face the Teenage Rebellion one after the other, with some overlapping period and if you had your first born at age 30 then you will have your own Menopause Symptoms to add on this tough span.

This Friday when I rushed out to watch the marching band which my younger one is part of it parading to the moors field which is right behind where we live and only found that I just miss it, he didn't even bother to inform me ahead for this particular event, though it happened yearly.

Right at that moment I felt like I had been abandoned, isolated, forgotten, betrayed and my own kid don't even want or need me being part of his life.

As I tried to walk back home disappointed, on the way, I saw a young mom holding on her cute little boy, that's when I cannot hold my tears anymore, all my memory brought me back to when my boys were little.

They are the most adorable kids, they are my whole world.

We talked, we read, we walked, we laughed, we did everything together.

I totally understand and respect this Teenage Rebellion is just part of the growing up, but I'm merely a human being. Thank God for fighting every battle with me!

Hebrews 10:24
And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds,

Psalm 119:105 
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.

Reckless Love - [Lyric Video] Cory Asbury
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7GGJ8cyYNzQ

[Verse 1] Before I spoke a word, You were singing over me You have been so, so good to me Before I took a breath, You breathed Your life in me You have been so, so kind to me [Chorus] Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God Oh, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah [Verse 2] When I was Your foe, still Your love fought for me You have been so, so good to me When I felt no worth, You paid it all for me You have been so, so kind to me [Chorus] Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God Oh, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine I couldn't earn it, and I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah [Bridge] There's no shadow You won't light up Mountain You won't climb up Coming after me There's no wall You won't kick down Lie You won't tear down Coming after me There's no shadow You won't light up Mountain You won't climb up Coming after me There's no wall You won't kick down Lie You won't tear down Coming after me There's no shadow You won't light up Mountain You won't climb up Coming after me There's no wall You won't kick down Lie You won't tear down Coming after me There's no shadow You won't light up Mountain You won't climb up Coming after me There's no wall You won't kick down Lie You won't tear down Coming after me [Chorus] Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God Oh, it chases me down, fights 'til I'm found, leaves the ninety-nine And I couldn't earn it, I don't deserve it, still, You give Yourself away Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah