retreat - better together - 4

This year’s retreat, something happens coincidence like last year’s. I have an ear infection, last year it happens couple days before we go to the retreat. This year, it happens right as we are in the hotel, same hotel different room.

Last year even I had the ear infection; I still went swimming with the kids. Why? First I want to be with them and swim. Second, I had a funny thought in my mind, “the chloride in the swimming pool water, it may cure my ear infection!” It sounds stupid, but my infection did cured before we left the retreat.

This year I didn’t go swimming with them, I watching them at the pool side. And this time, the ear infection still linger.

retreat - better together - courageous - 3

Courageous is a Christian drama film, I like it a lot, although it costs me a lot of tears. It also has plenty of laughter in between. 

I don't know what is this movie is about beforehand.  I encourage my kids watch it. When the movie is over, I cry so hard, I know my younger one watch the movie too. And I am so afraid of they will get hurt from this movie. The movie is all about how important is a father's in affecting a child's life. Their father are absent from their since they were so little. Pastor says, after watch movie then discuss it together is a healing process.

Five different fathers in this movie, those are the typically fathers in our everyday life, sometimes it maybe mix with more than one kind of father. Everyone has his or her origin family; they all play very crucial effects on our lives.

So far I still don’t have the courage to talk to them about it. I pray the Lord for forgiving me on a lot of things, including me sometimes aware of not aware and hurt either one of them. And we need to learn to let go the past, especially the hurts then we can move forward in the healthy way. We also need to forgive the unintentional harm.

It is principal to solve the damage before it is still small. Never hide it or ignore or pretend it didn’t happen. In some point of your life it will explode and become a big hurt to more than just one person.

Let go and let God.

retreat - better together - 1

This memorial weekend, we have a retreat with the whole church. The theme is “better together”. It starts from Saturday afternoon until Monday afternoon.

We get there late, around 9:00pm; due to my younger kid has a hiking trip. I and he don’t want to miss it, so I and my older one wait until the hiking is finish then go to the retreat together. I and my older one sacrifice something on the retreat. After all, the theme is “better together”.

We do miss some wonderful workshops.

Their hiking is well; this is the first time they do this high difficulty hike, 14 miles round trip, go up and down the mountain. They don’t expect to take this long time to finish the hike, around 12 hours. We have being waiting not really patiently that day. We thought that we can make it for the retreat at the beginning. While we are waiting, I recall that early morning before they leave for the hike, the leader teach them about how dealing with the mountain lion and bear when you encounter with it face to face. That really scares me, as the expect come back time passing. In my mind I start to think, maybe they really get to come across this situation or some of them trip during the hike and hurt themselves. And that is why it is delay. I see the helicopter in the sky. I almost want to cry. I pray and listen to the hymn and sing with it. That is a terrifying and torment waiting period. In between we do try to call and text them, but get no answer. That is really perturbed.

Finally the phone ring and tell us they are coming back in 30 minutes. That is a release. And that is when I call my friend to save the dinner from the retreat for us, so we can have food to eat when we arrive late.

When we pick the younger up, we all rejoice to finally to meet each other and busy talk to him everything about the hike but the waiting and the worry of us. He does get hurt and some others too. He is sore and tired but happy about it, actually we all very glade to know that.

We talk and talk until they both get tired and fall asleep, as usual. The driving is fine, it take a little more than 2 hours and no traffic. When we at last there, it is late and dark, and take some time to find the parking lot and the parking space.

First we eat our box dinner, get our room key, shower, watch a little bit of TV and then go to sleep. I set up the alarm for get up on time and not to miss the breakfast.

I do not sleep well because the change of the bed. I get up really early before the alarm sound. When it is almost the time for the breakfast, I first pull open the curtain, and then turn on the music, then sing with it and then finally the kids wake up.

a willing heart

Some people are really providential; they have the capacity and willing hearts to provide helps to people who are in need.

Some have the hearts of helping but they only have very limited ability for it.

And some, they have plenty of time and competences, but they are not inclined to help.

I thanks Lord for all of them, maybe some of them not ready yet. Please give strength to each of them,   may the people have the willing hearts, may them grow each day in you.

early morning - memorial day

I am not really enjoying wake up in the early morning, especially waking up by alarm clock and I am not even the one set the alarm.

Yes! IT IS THE kid's alarm clock. I am the mom; I am supposed to take good care of him. He has done most of the part that he should do except been woken up by the alarm clock that set up for himself. So help him as much as I can so he can sleep a bit longer.

We haven't drive out this early for some time. I like the traffic with most of the green traffic light when we are passing light.

Also another good thing is today most kids are quite on time for their event. Other time most of the kids are late for the event that is really terrible.

After set he off I went to get the gas for my car, and found that the station stopped the pumps during the quiet time.

And now I have to get ready for our church's retreat trip.

It will be a busy but joyful long weekend ahead.

I pray to the Lord for a safe, joyful and fun learning time for all of us.

SESAME SAUCE NOODLE

Sesame sauce noodle, it is delicious, I love it, and it is not hard to prepare it.

It goes nicely with raw shredded cucumber and strip egg pancake.

You need sesame paste, of course, garlic, a lot of them, sugar, lemon juice. You may also have some soy sauce and/or peanut, those will make it smell even nice.

Put the garlic and lemon juice into the blender; blend them until it is smooth.

You can also put all the sauce ingredients into the blender and blend all together. I didn’t do that, because it is hard to clean the container after that. It will be greasy from the sesame oil.

OIL & TIRES CHANGE

Today I had four brand new tires for my car, and then went to next door shop to have the alignment. What so special is not just spending whole lot of money on it in one day, but surprised find out that both of shops had changed the ownership lately. Those two shops are my regular visit for my car for couple of years.

I met new friends and give them my business cards also introduce my church to them. You know salesperson’s occupational habit, always has to initiate. Knowing that no matter what I can know someone new, not just for the business.

One of new friend is the repair shop’s customer like me. And according to him, his is 88 years old and still driving; it is unbelievable and amazingly wonderful. He is from china then move to Japan for 20 years and then move here, too bad that didn’t get chance to ask him about Japanese. Another one is the shop owner and his last name is situ (司徒), this is the third that I know in this small area.

listening, singing and crying

相信有愛就有奇蹟 Believe in Love, You Will See Miracles

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=p4le9igeSTA

http://www.ysong.org/gepu/1/26/4/13799.gif

眼光 ~ 台語詩歌 天韻 (Taiwanese) Eye Sight

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=C3lsdn9XEGY

http://www.zanmeishi.com/tab/4948.html

These are the 2 songs that I was listening, singing and crying with.

Sometimes you are too sad to even say a word for praying, just listen to hymns.

The answers are right there. Never give up, never give in, there is always hope, you are a miracle.

SEMINARY

Years ago, a customer of mine, was joking at me, said, “You should go to seminary study and become a pastor, there are a lot of pastors are needed nowadays.”

Today after I did some sharing with a song to my evergreen college classmates, one of the classmates said to me, “You should go to seminary study and become a teacher to teach singing.”

I am startled. It caught me a lot of thinking.

Actually, it is kind of weird that the other when my friend called me to ask me, do I want to meet a guy. That day in my mind I told myself, “if I ever get a chance to meet a Mr. Right for the second chance, he has to be either a pastor or someone can support a pastor and has to be a good singer.”

taiwanese worship songs

一世人跟隨你

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LdYzACcRm_I

http://file.zanmeishi.com/store/2013/04/14/5169fc2f00769ebc2700000a.gif

眼光 Eye Sight
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=C3lsdn9XEGY
http://www.zanmeishi.com/tab/4948.html

耶和華祝福滿滿 (Faith : Hymns)

http://jgospel.net/faith/hymns/%E8%80%B6%E5%92%8C%E8%8F%AF%E7%A5%9D%E7%A6%8F%E6%BB%BF%E6%BB%BF.c40504.aspx#

http://edit.jgospel.net/media/40504/.57541.jpg

主祢的疼(閩南語) Lord, It's Your Love

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=WA8MqGNWRTQ&itct=CB0QpDAYAyITCJCvzZX15cMCFU6qvgod8FUA9TIHcmVsYXRlZEiWvtehvr263Hw%3D
http://down.kyhs.me:2280/web/gepu/d/file/2014/07/9fb377adac4ca0c52010c8710a5309d7.jpg

有人在替你祈禱
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4WJwlw1BW-8

上帝在照顧你

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uSMjiDBFvHU

愛到永遠

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=d6I7i9-WGsU

無限的愛

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=OQUsKjTJ5fU

The Measure of a Man

The Measure of a Man is a book about what it takes to be a man of God.

Every chapter, there is a topic to learn, discuss and set goal with your accountably partner.

It is mainly for man to read and learn how to be a man of God. It also can be a book to help on someone to grow into a righteous man.

Learning through God and with others is easier, faster and easy to keep. By oneself alone is not just tougher, sometimes you don’t realize that you have something need to be changed.

butter & bacon

“With enough butter, anything is good.” Julia Child.

I found that’s so true but not that healthy though. Once in a while should be ok.

I also recommend have bacon into your ingredients. And make sure chose the healthy ones, nitrate free bacon.

wired company name

Master bait and bait

Mammoth erection construction

 Big ass fans

That’s some wired company but success. Those really take guts and luck to name your company’s name like that and have accomplishment in the business.

They use them to attract people’s attentions.

The company, Mammoth erection construction, almost went out of business before the owner decided to change the name into this one.

Actually same thing happen in the entertainment business too. You want to be success and famous, you have to be either extremely good looking or talented or extraordinary strange looking. In other words, you got to have your own styles.

something special

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_cbnBak8RI&feature=youtu.be

 “Conduct Us”, this is a brilliant idea. I wish that I was there so I can also try it out.

http://youtu.be/VOCHuJ5wFgo

“Turkish March”, using irregular instruments, it’s something nice.

frozen grapes & other fruits

I try to freeze the grapes, eat it directly and it tastes delicious. It’s a fun way to have fruits as desert.

Also freeze the bananas and strawberries then blend with some milk, it tastes just like ice cream. I love it. And remember take out the frozen fruits out of the freezer around 20 minutes before you blend them.

June sharing

大家好！我是Alice。

當5月16日明磊牧師問我，是否可以6月份上台做見證分享，我當時感到很驚訝和害怕回答他，但我心裡知道這是我應該做的。

我回答他說，”好”。

其實我自己曾經在心裡這樣想著，”我不是一個很擅長分享或是一個喜歡說話的人或是一個很勇敢的人，如果有一天有人要讓我上台分享，那會一件太容易的事了，因為只要我 Alice，願意而且敢的站在台上拿著麥克風，即使我不說話，這已經是一個見證了”。

從小我就是一個很膽小也非常不愛說話的人。當我在小學時，我們有一堂說話課，這堂課只要上台在全班同學面前講一個小故事或笑話就有分數，而且越早上台分數就越高。我總是等到最後一刻才不得已的上台講，只是為了要有分數。在那個時候，我還可以接受我自己這種安靜的個性。

但隨著年齡的增長，到了國中、高中時，我開始認為這樣的個性是不太好的而且很吃虧，我試圖用自己的方式，強迫自己要勇敢，要主動去跟別人講話，但我失敗了。當時我告訴我自己，”算了吧！放棄吧！我的個性就是這樣！改不了的！” 。那時我也開始心中有很多的抱怨，我把所有的過錯都推給別人，我甚至怪自己的父母，“為什麼他們給我這樣的個性？他們為什麼在我還小的時候就多帶我參加活動，像教會.........，這樣我就可以有更多的機會學習如何與其他人相處。” 抱怨我身邊的每一個人，不管是認識我或是不認識我的人，怪他們，”難道你們不知道我很害羞嗎？一個人在角落，很需要你們的關心和注意嗎？為什麼你們都不主動和我打招呼？”

我現在的工作是業務員。我接受這份工作時，大概是11年前的事了，所有我的親友包括我自己，都覺得非常不可思義。幸運的是，當初我的老闆可能已查覺了我的個性，所以在一剛開始的時就告訴我，說，”Alice，你就暫時先留在辦公室裡做電話行銷員一段時間，先不需要出去跑客戶”，其實當時即使是電話推銷，對我來講也是極高難度的事。我曾對當時培訓我的資深同事，說，”這幾天我講的話加起來，可能是我過去將近40年講過的話還要多”。

就在那11年前的同時，我也開始恢復參加暫停多年的教會活動，我來到洛福，在這裡主更為我安排了一個最適合我的團契，彩虹之光，團契的弟兄姐妹們很體諒我，常常鼓勵我，為我禱告，幫助我，我的生命慢慢開始有了改變。特別是最近大約1年多的時間，我與一組教會的成員，參加社區服務，到康復中心和老人公寓作探訪的事工。另外我也參加教會辦的長春大學，在這些看似服侍人的互動中，我得到了極大的鼓舞和造就，明磊牧師、碧蓉執事、淑姿姐、敏明傳道、所有參與的同工們及參加活動的長輩們給了我許許多多的學習機會和祝福，我開始樂意學習主動和陌生人交談、開口為人禱告、帶領詩歌敬拜、生活小故事的分享、讚美操的帶動，更學會許多詩歌，還有幾種對我來曾是很陌生的語言，如台語、英語、廣東話還有日語，也因此開始了我個人的部落格的寫作練習，我成為一個勇敢和喜樂的人。

神非常愛我，祂派了許多天使來向我傳播他的愛，祂的愛改變了我的眼光更讓我實現夢想。( 相信祂的愛，你就會看到奇蹟。) 

在我的分享結束前想與你們分享一首詩歌，( 詩歌在我生活中扮演了一個非常重要的角色, 它感動我、安慰、醫治我。) 邀請你們一起來唱。　

Hello! My name is Alice; I am with Rainbow Light Fellowship.

On May 16, when Pastor Joseph, asks me if I can come up to the stage and do sharing at our church, I was astonished and kind of afraid to answer him but I knew that’s what I should do at the same time.

Still I said yes to him, but not because that I am good at sharing or I am a talkative person. It’s because I, Alice, am willing to take a microphone and stand on the stage. Even if I don’t say anything, it’s a testimony already.

I am a very timid person. When I was at elementary school, we had a class that everyone has come up to in front of the classmates and you had to share a short story or a joke. I was always the one who waited until the last minute to speak, only because I wanted to pass the class. But at that time, I was okay with my quiet personality.

As I grew older, I started to think that was not right and I tried to force myself to be brave and initiative to talk to others. But I failed, so I wanted to give up on that and I also started to complain. I gave all the faults to others and I blamed a lot on my parents. I asked myself, “Why do they give me such a personality? Why don’t they take me out a lot, like church, so I can have more chances to get alone with other people.” You guys were lucky you had wise parents who took you to church. "Why did the people around me, whether they know me or not, didn’t notice me? Didn’t they know I was shy and needed attention?"

My current job is a salesperson. Having me go out and meeting with people face to face was the biggest joke of my life when I accepted this job 11 years ago. Luckily my boss probably noticed my personality at that time and he let me stayed in the office as a telemarketer for some time before I needed to go out and talk to customers face to face. In fact, even telemarketing, for me, is also extremely difficult too. I told the senior colleague who trained me at that time, "These days all the words that I speak adding up together, probably more than what I speak in the past nearly 40 years all together."

Around at the same time, 11 years ago, I start going back to church. Before this I stop going to church for some years. Lord also prepares the best fellowship for me. My fellowship’s brothers and sisters were very considerate of me. They encouraged me, prayed for me, and helped me. My life started to change because of this. Lately I’ve being participating community services with a group of church members. We go to rehabilitation center and senior apartment to serve people. I also attend evergreen senior college at our church. It looks like I am the one serving others; I get the most encouragement, learning opportunities and blessings from those activities. I start enjoying talking to strangers, making friends with them and leading the small group worship, doing the life story sharing, pray with them, leading the praise dance exercise. I learn a lot of hymns, getting familiar with other languages than Mandarin, like Taiwanese, English, Cantonese and a little bit of Japanese. I also start my own blog. That’s where and when I grew quickly into a brave and joyful person.

God loves me so much, He sent many angels to spread His love onto me. Believe in His love, you will see miracles. Because His love, my vision changed, my dreams come true.

I’d like to share one song with you now, hymn plays a very important role in my life, and it touches me, supports me, comforts me, and heals me.

相信有愛就有奇蹟 Believe in Love, You Will See Miracles

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=p4le9igeSTA
http://www.cocmedia.org.uk/Mandarin/Our_Ministries/Pray&Worship/John316_101-200.html
http://www.cocmedia.org.uk/Mandarin/Our_Ministries/Pray&Worship/Song%20Sheets/CS0170.pdf

Open the eyes of my heart lord 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vnqb7Vn4AEE
http://www.leadworship.com/resources/pdf/leadsheets/OpenTheEyes_LS.pdf

眼光 ~ 台語詩歌 天韻 (Taiwanese) Eye Sight

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=C3lsdn9XEGY

http://www.zanmeishi.com/tab/4948.html

愛是不保留 (cantonese) An Unreserved L ove

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_ADlWflyrc

http://www.cccc.org.uk/mandarin/scores/aishibubaoliu.gif

homemade Sweetened Condensed Milk

I found this from Google search, I cannot wait to try it, and it looks so easy. Hurray! And can be one the ingredient for some other recipes.

Ingredients:

·                        1 cup instant nonfat dry milk

·                        2/3 cup granulated sugar

·                        1/3-1/2 cup boiling water

·                        1/4 cup (2 oz) melted butter

Preparation:

1. Place the dry milk, granulated sugar, 1/3 cup of the boiling water, and the melted butter in a blender.

2. Blend all ingredients together until they are smooth, scraping down the sides of the blender occasionally to get all the dry ingredients incorporated.

3. Condensed milk typically has a thick, syrupy consistency, but if your homemade condensed milk is too thick to pour easily, add another spoonful or two of boiling water and blend to incorporate. Adjust the water until you are happy with the consistency.

4. Use your homemade sweetened condensed milk right away, or store it in an airtight container in the refrigerator for up to 5 days. It will get thicker when it is refrigerated, but will loosen up when stirred and brought to room temperature.

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It makes around 1 can, 12-16 oz. of it. It’s ready to make some yummy treats out of it.

It tastes really delightful. You can add coco powder water to make coco drink, cold or hot.

And it's a new way to use milk powder.

But next time I’ll not to use the butter for it.

 

 

 

team work

Team work, is very important. No matter how the leader is talented. Work as a team is always more efficiency. A leader takes all the jobs on he/she is not a perfect leader.

A good team leader will lead the team members to a right direction and let every member has the chance to grow. The good team leader will respect his/her team members. The leader oversee the future, arrange every member’s job duty, let them know what’s lays ahead, solve the problem(s), maintain a good communicate with the members, listen to members, accept suggestion(s). We help and rely on each other.

I learn a lot from our community service team leader.

The Swiss Family Robinson

I’m surprised to found out that the author of the book, The Swiss Family Robinson, is a pastor.

Or I should say it’s not a wonder that if you start to read the book. The way when confront life threaten situation, there’s no complain or condemn. The father pray to the Lord and give the control to Him, even there’s a chance the whole family may lose lives at the shipwreck.

In the story, the main characters are The Swiss Family Robinson, father, mother and four young sons. The story begins with the day when they wake up and found that they in the shipwreck and all others retreat without them. Then they abandon the ship and manage to an unknown island safely. There, they start a brand life and whole lot of adventures also dangers waiting for them.

The families also successfully go back to their ship and get back some useful stuffs before the ship sink. They use the knowledge that have and learn something new to survive. Every skill for the life, recognize plants, animal and each other. They still maintain daily prayers and weekly church meeting. That’s really tough when you are that kind of position; you can still be calm and joy.

They plant crops, tan animals into pets. They built a tree house, and discover a cave for living in and store foods. It is a good book to read. As every chapter turns new surprise occurs.

 

 

 

Eloquence

Eloquence is really something that no everyone can have it.

One time at a supermarket, there’s a free sample stand. The people at the sampling table who is from country A said, “don’t worry about the quality form our country A, there’s something good about our people, we always save the best to export.”

Some other time, at another supermarket, there’s also a free sample stand. The sampling people from country A said, “don’t buy this product from country A, there’s serious pollution at that origin farming place, buy this one from country B instead”.

That is really something.

mother's day 2014

This year’s mother’s day is kind of special to me. I decide to go visit the convalescent home that I used to go for my mother’s day. I talk to some moms and say happy mother’s day to them.

I buy myself a first pair ever, knee high boots and wear them at mother’s day.

I get a carnation and a piece of cake at the mother’s day tea party.

I get a tulip from the fellowship.

I get a pot of flower with balloon from only $1 mother's day lunch at church, including the kids’ wonderful performances.

I get a mug with family picture on it from the church for mother’s day gift.

I do frying banana, blue berry muffin, instant pickle rutabaga and green onion beef for the mother’s day special. And I found bread with green onion and instant rutabaga is a perfect match. I give it an A, but if exchange the bread with the French bread that will be an A+.

Who says that the mother’s day has to be eating big meal with kids or receiving big gift from kids. Adore yourself; treat yourself special at anytime any occasion. Of course if it’s from the kids that’ll be a plus.

instant pickle rutabaga

This is my first time to make this dish too.

It tastes sweet and sour. It’s convenient and easy.

First I have rutabaga skinned and thin sliced.

Soak them with lemon juice; make sure the juice can cover all of them. And don't forget to put sugar and a little salt, soak them for at least 4 hours before consume them.

When you eat them drip a little sesame oil onto them.

fry bananas

This is the first time that I try it.

I enjoy try new stuff, new food to eat, new way to cook or new route to go. And it is always good to our brain too.

The ingredients for the banana coating are wheat flour, shredded coconut, and sugar and of course you need water.

You also can have one or some milk powder or milk for the coating.

Then fry them, it tastes good to me. 

may sharing - 2 - mirror

Thanks to the Chinese association for the annual mother's day tea party. It’s not a fancy one. There are performances and sponsor companies’ booths. Organizer volunteers their money, time, energy and so on to make this event happen. Every mom gets a small gift, cake and flower. There are 3-4 hundred of moms.

There’s one thing, I can't help to notice, two moms right besides me, one to my left, and the other to my right.

The mom on my left, she come alone wears a bright color dress, not a fancy or formal one; it's appropriate and looks pretty on her. She’s with a confident smile on her face all the time, shopping and browsing the sponsors’ booths constantly before the performance begins. You can tell she enjoy the performances by taking pictures of the performances with her smart phone and clapping hands after every single performance.

On the contrary, the mom on my right, she's talking to her friend all the way through the tea party. She criticizes every single performance, everything about the tea party, even about her relatives and other friends in between the performances.

The mother's day tea party, do you guys get the pictures of it. What do you see in this big picture? 

There are hosts, the performances, the sponsors, more than 3 hundreds of moms, the cakes, the carnations, and the moms sit right next to me, me and an invisible mirror in front of me.

Remember the mom next to me, left and right side that I’m talking about earlier. Now I see myself, too, am complaining and judge others. I forgot forgiving and praying for them, instead, I join the train of complaining. In the daily, I often like that, forgot to enjoy and appreciate things that I already have the beauty of the people around me. I complain and criticize others, even my love ones.

Shot to the lord

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gn5CMSSAx_c

http://sheetmusic.web44.net/SheetMusic/Hillsong-Shout-To-The-Lord.pdf

fine art festival

It is a wonderful evening; I enjoy the performances of the junior high and high school students. It is lovely yet some excitement of music.

In between the piece, there's brief enthusiasm recite about the music. I like and adopt this kind of pattern a lot, not to bore myself and the audiences.

The performances are full of passions. Whether it's for the choir or the band, every single performer should be brave and good enough to do the solo or even lead the group. Everyone is part of the team.

prepare the heart for worship

從「滿足個人愛好」到「滿足神」。成為一個真正的敬拜者，先被神感動，才能透過詩歌，唱出有生命見證的詩歌。

From "satisfy personal interests" to "meet God’s requirement". Become a true worshiper, first, be touched by God, then can, and sing worship songs as a God’s live witness.

you make me crazy - abuse lessen

http://rickwarren.org/series/you-make-me-crazy

This is a great book, I should take time to study it and use it in real life.

I don’t the have the book, just read the summary from online; I think its 7 chapters of them.

Chapter 4

Breaking free from abuse:

Seven steps to freedom,

1. Don’t keep it a secret.

2. Name the abuse

3. Don’t minimize it, don't rationalize it.

4. Help them to a safe place if necessary.

5. Don’t confront an abuse by yourself.

6. Being the healing process.

7. Let god settle the score.

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“Christ never verbally abused those who verbally abused him. When he suffered, he didn’t

Make any threats but left everything to the one who judges fairly.”

1 Peter 2:23 (GW)

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In most of the cases, the abused person becomes an abuser later on their life. And they don’t even realize it until others tell them. In some cases, the person being abused later is abused by another people.

People who being verbally abused by their parent(s), same pattern, verbally abuse their kids. When they finally notice it, it’s way so hard to change it by their own will.

Another case is a girl abused by her mom, when she grows up and married, she is abused by her mom-in-law. It’s another kind of pattern. She’s eager to have another mom to have a good relationship, trust her and tell her true story to her.

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For the abusers the first and second steps are easy to accomplish.

But for the third one, a lost of time, they minimize and rationalize it and don’t even aware of it, or they refuse to admit that they are being abused.

If someone comes to you with their story, you need to find out what is the truth.

If that’s a truth, how can we help? If the abuser is their elder mom, how can you get them to the safe place, because the elderly need to be taken care of, you cannot just leave them alone, right?

Step 5 is crucial; don’t try to solve it alone, it’s very dangerous.

If you can past the first 5 steps, step 5 & 6 is the only solution for all.

Breakthrough the terrible abuse cycle from our lives, it is god will.

head injury from the past

Years ago, it’s more than 20 years ago.

I went on a trout fishing trip with couple of friends, actually only four of us. You need to start from the early morning, before the sun is rising, around 4 or 5 o’clock in the morning. First we drive to the destination then hike for hours to get in the deep mountain then it’s the fishing time.

It’s not the first time I go. I really enjoy the natural and everything except you need to get up early morning and pack the food for the hike. Overall I like it a lot.

But that day when we hike, I remember it rain days ago before our trip that day. So the floor is kind of wet. And the hike is kind of tough as usual, we need to across the stream, hike up and down and between the huge rocks.

Then is the accident happens to me, I slip and fall down on a rock and hit my head.

I feel dizzy and hurt the group stop and check on me and I rest a little. There’s comfort, concern also blame on me too, “why don’t you be careful, and why do you jump the rock”. I feel a little sad about the blaming. And you won’t believe it; we go on and finish the trip again.

Years later today, I have tinnitus and I believe it’s the sequela from the head accident. I still feel lucky and blessed about the accident. Because that a heavy hit to my head and I don’t have the concussion or anything, I pray to the Lord for protect me and my love ones always and heal our hurts whether it’s the physically or mentally.

pressure -

Matthew 16:26

What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange.

It’s another busy season of our company. Whenever it is the busy season, everyone from the boss to all the coworkers are like tight bows.

A lot of pressures and it’s terrible.

Life is full of pressure and responsibilities.

You got to find a balance between it otherwise you’ll be ruined.

People say, “Pressure is a motivation to push to move forward”.

Agree and not agree, not in every case, it depends on how you handle it.

prayer when decide to receive Lod's love

Knowing God, knowing your identity, knowing Jesus, knowing Holy Spirit, it’s the things that you know to understand when you decide to receive God’s love.

There’s a prayer base on that four concepts that we usually do before to be baptized. Then you need to have some kind of courses to help you really acknowledge what you are going to have.

23 May 2014 worship songs

滿有能力  I am strengthened in Him

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5ZUg3ySrvdI

http://file.zanmeishi.com/store/2013/04/11/5166a5c100769e680500000c.jpg (music sheet)

Shout to the lord

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gn5CMSSAx_c

http://sheetmusic.web44.net/SheetMusic/Hillsong-Shout-To-The-Lord.pdf (music sheet)

I have a tiny paper cut, right between the 3rd and 4th finger of my right hand.

That night before I went to sleep, I can still feel the pain and I hold my right hand tightly, I tell myself, “ tomorrow I’ll just watching other church members do the cleaning.” Right away I have other thought, “not give up but pray for my own wound “. I pray the Lord, “please heal my wound overnight “.

我愛禱告  I Love Praying  http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7h9q91yy-u

http://gepu.kuanye.net/e/ViewImg/index.html?url=http://down.kuanye.net:2280/web/gepu/d/file/2014/01/dbc9b1e43f3a209804c831f9111fb4da.jpg (music sheet)

HERE I AM TO WORSHIP

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FLATTERED

The other day when I was at library, someone told me, “You are beautiful”.

I’m flattered by that comment, but feel uncomfortable at the same time. I don’t know why? It’s a comment from a stranger.

And I’m glad that my son is with me when we are leaving the library.

concert

Do what you should do and leave the rest to the Lord’s hand.

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The other day my younger kid has a performance and he forgot to bring his instrument home.

That is really upset. I tell him let’s try to go to school before the performance, see if we are lucky that there’s a staff at school can open the classroom door for you to get the instrument. We are not lucky, it’s a weekend what can we expect.

Then I tell him, we still have to go to the performance on time and to see if the conductor has a spare one that you can borrow from. If not, the worst case is, “you still need to help out for the before concert setting up and the after concert cleaning up”.

And luckily the conductor has a spare one for him.

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The concert is perfectly fine; a lot of credits go to the conductor and those kids. It’s an afternoon performance. It’s hot with a little breeze. And what make it wonderful is the passion of the conductor and the kids. The conductor has being with the school district forever. He’s not just a professional musician, passion, and patient with kids, knowing how to play almost every single music instrument, tune up and repair the instrument, humor and so on. We are lucky to have him.

After the performance we went to have late lunch and a movie, the amazing of spider man 2.

May 2 2014 worship songs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQkl7nlaVKM

First a short clip to share with everyone. Does anyone know what this clip is about?

Yes! It is the total lunar eclipse, the blood moon the occurred at April 14/15 2014. It happens around 11:58pm until to the next day around 12:05am. At first my kids are with me then when it’s getting late, they feel tired so they go to sleep.

I used to be a timid person, I was scared of dark and lonely, even I was with big crowd of people.

That day after kids gone to sleep, I’m alone but I don't feel lonely at all because I know there is really a God and He is with me all time. And not just that He has the clear sky, the beautiful clouds, the moon, and the shining stars to keep company with me.

And that is also the first time that I aware of the stars are really twinkling at me like they are talking to and smiling at me.

Here is the beautiful song that I want to share with you, please sing along with me.

有一天 One Day (mandarin) http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=7OAkr_Flq6A

http://www.cmcontent.org/album/2/SheetMusic/03.pdf (sheet music)

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For God is so love of us, would you love Him back and be the channel of His peace. May this be your prayer too!

Make Me a Channel of Your Peace http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ihhvm6eLWZI
http://www.hopepublishing.com/media/pdf/8004.pdf (sheet music)

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A Cantonese song to share with you, please sing and learn with me.

愛是不保留http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_ADlWflyrc

http://www.cccc.org.uk/mandarin/scores/aishibubaoliu.gif  (music sheet)

the old lady and the dog

This morning when I drove to work, a picture drew my attention immediately. An old dog walking slowly behind a lady, right away I turn back quickly and find out the lady walk a bit ahead of the dog is an old lady.

And the old lady is constantly stop and waiting for her dog. That’s a beautiful picture, they two like two old friends, and I bet she has her dog when they are both young. They don’t give up on each other and still walk together.

Don’t stop doing something that is a good habit, even though you are old.

Don’t let go your good friend(s) when they are old or are too slow to you pace.